Looking Up: A New Year Is Begun
I'm nearly two weeks into this year with already little to show in regard to my only resolution. To focus on God entirely is not as easy as it once was, for whatever reason. Perhaps it's the sleep and work schedule. Perhaps it's the somewhat unfamiliar ward. Cause still unknown, the bottom line is that I'm struggling to keep my commitment to myself. I refer to it as a commitment to myself (as opposed to a commitment to God) because I recognize I am much more strict with myself in regard to failure and success than He is with me. It's not always kind, and certainly not my strong suit, but it gets better results. Maybe. Or maybe the truth is I can't bear the thought of letting Him down yet again, and so I aim to disappoint someone I hold in lower regard. All of this thinking, however, is quite backward. It should be such that I'm giving the best of myself to the greatest light possible and expecting the most help I can get as a respon...